entah berapa janji pernah kuingkari
entah berapa perintah tak kujalani
dan..
entah berapa mimpi akhirnya kusirnakan

tapi..
kau tetap berdiri disana dengan senyummu
kau selalu berdoa untukku dalam sujudmu
dan..
kau tak lelah sinari hariku dengan cintamu

                                                    …cici

My Bubu, lagu ini untukmu
i love you..

Tersadar didalam sepiku
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Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku
Kembali dalam dekap tanganmu

Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semuaaa kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu

Tanpamu tiada berarti
Tak mampu lagi berdiri
Cahaya kasihmu menuntunku
Kembali dalam dekapan tanganmu

Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semuaaa kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu

Terima kasih cinta untuk segalanya
Kau berikan lagi kesempatan itu
Tak akan terulang lagi
Semuaaa kesalahanku
Kesalahanku yang pernah menyakitimu

 
    something big is coming
    hold your breathe
    keep your energy
    find something to hold on to
    time is clicking
    the 1st among the others
    ready or not
    here it comes
    28..

    ..got this from one of my best buddy

                                                           I’ve walked for 28 years,
                                                           I’ve through lots of thing
                                                           Happiness and Sorrow
                                                           Laugh and Tears

                                                           GOD
                                                           Thank you for what i am
                                                           Thank you for what i have

                                                            I’ll keep walking
                                                                             ..sna 140208      

ps: happy valentine readers

to tell you d’ truth, i have nothing special to be written
but i do really want to write
hhmmmm..
i’m goin to write this weekend activity

i used to plan to go to the gym and   do some task @ the office,but…i changed my weekend plan coz i’m too lazy to go outside.I’ll do overtime next week .
well, what will i do??

After came out from my cave and had some breakfast, i went to my new room. well, since January will be my sist wedding day & we do sleep @ the same room, so i need to move (why me??). It’s  messy .  The  wall already white painted (i don’t like it!!), the tile & the door white either ( look pale, aagghhhhh!!!)  . I need to repaint this room ( color??). Autumn color
will be perfect, i decided.
Together with my cousin, we went to buy a wall paint,  dark  & bright  yellow. Gosshhhh painting isn’t an easy job. I found my self fulled by paint.  During painting, suddenly my bubu walked in and been surprised with the color "are U sure with this color?" she asked n i just laugh to saw her face. " i want a colorful room" i replied
It was almost afternoon, we almost finish but i’m too tire, we’ll continue tomorrow.
i stand and watch my room. i need a red carpet i’ll buy it tomorrow

It’s said that “smile to the
world, and the whole world will smile to you”

every body can do it,
coz smile is one of the gift that GOD
gave to us since we were delivered to the world. How come a new born baby knows
how to make beautiful smiles that have influence to family feeling? It’s a natural expression of what human feel
inside.

 A smile is not about show your
teeth or wider your lips, you have to smile with your eyes and heart. No matter
how hard you try, if it’s not come from your heart all they see is just a fake
smile, useless..

Bec’ I am a Moslem, I made it
as my main reason  to smile. Islam
teaches me that humankind is family, we have to love each other. I smile to respect
someone and to let them know that we do care. Have you ever feel that you
really care to someone that you want to give the most beautiful smile each time
you meet him/her? and your smile become wider if he/she smiles too? Hhhmmm, I
have.. and it feels so good to feel it. Or sometimes you smile for no reason to stranger?? Hahaha…You have to be
careful with this one. And the most important is, I smile to avoid wrinkle

Some situation put in a bad sit
that it’s hard for me to be nice to someone. In my working are, some people
known me as a bad person, someone who never give a smile, they talk about it
behind me and I just smile when I heard about it, don’t care what they said,
“What do they know about my job?” I said to my self. I have to admit that I
become unfriendly  person and get frown
if she/he comes into my side with rude, and it’s hard for me to change it, try
to be patient and keep smiling.

A month ago, my buddy talked “ci, can I ask you something? Will you keep
smiling if someone at the office annoying you? I’ll ask you no more than this”.
“It’s going to be hard for me, and takes
time” I replied.

Up to that moment, I hear his
voice each time I start to get mad. Somehow, he whispers in my ears “ci, keep smiling”

 Tips to have an irresistible SMILE (Upzzzzz)

1. Do it with your heart. Learn to think positive of all thing around and inside you coz it will reflect in you eyes
2. Look at the mirror, try several style of smile and find which one that change you to become prettier/ handsome
3. Clean you teeth. We don’t have to open our mouth each time we smile, but we couldn’t control the situation too. What will happen if we smile with a chili in our teeth?? Horrible!!!
4. DO NOT smile to stranger too long!!!

Your joke isn’t funny,

don’t  you have a
sense of humor ?

You have a bad haircut,

were you sleeping during the cut ?

I don’t like the way you smile,

don’t you know how to do it ?

Your skirt doesn’t match in your body

did u try it before?

When I say I love you..

I do it my own way

i never had a chat with him directly, but i like to read his profile. One day, i was surprised knowing that he was dying by cancer (my editor, sekarang betul kan tulisannya). God, he was so young.. i never missed everything that he wrote ever since, just to knew what’s on his mind.. n i learned so much from it.
i always had a mind to had a chat with him, ask him "how does it feel ??" just like i felt couple months go?? when doctor came into my room and said that i was in crisis  condition.
LIVE.. i learn it from U

today i knew that he’d passed away..

gw menemukan brosur NSP (sptnya gw dapet dari salah satu CD yang gw beli).. wkt liat list, & mata gw langsung tertarik dgn "for everything i am". I’
ve never heard this 1 before, tp akhirnya gw milih lg ini. Setelah selesai daftar, langsung gw cek lewat my cdma. YUPPPP!!!!!!!!!! i made the right choice, lagunya enak (tp kok liriknya ngak jelas yaa???). Thanks utk Internet (Multiply & youtube), finally i got the lyric,mp3, and the video clip..

both lyric & video clip are beautiful. The clip tells about a young mom who has a little girl that life with censer. She tries her best ’till the daughter become an angel ,do the funny thing and make her smile . She know, That little girl needs nothing than her mommy love, that love her for her. touchyyyyy

FOR EVERYTHING I AM

i may not be beside you
every day
i may run out of tender words to say
can’t promise you the world
when all i have is love only love

oh baby wont you look into my eyes and see
beyond the things i’m not as love inside of me
just love me for all the things i am love me…
the light inside the darkest sight
try to love me for everything i am…

you you’ve been inside
you’ve seen the darkest side of me
i’ve shown you everything i am
everything ohh baby…

won’t you look into my eyes and see
beyond the things i’m not as love inside of me
just love me for all the things i’am love me..
the light inside the darkest sight
try to love me for everything i am…

the light inside the darkest sight
try to love me for everything i am…

dia seorang yang pemarah.. tp aku mencintainya
dia berbeda keyakinan denganku.. tp aku mencintainya
dia membuatku menangis.. tp aku mencintainya
dia tidak menghormatiku.. tp aku mencintainya
dia bersikap kasar padaku.. tp aku mencintainya

"love is blind" ..
tp menurutku cinta itu tidak buta, dan memang seharusnya TIDAK BOLEH buta,
walau kadang kita terperangkap dlm situasi dimana PERASAAN lebih dominan dari LOGIKA
kadang semua dilakukan "atas nama cinta"
kata "cinta" dijadikan alasan to break d’ rule
bagaimana jk "cinta" yg hadir ternyata adalah sebuah cobaan???
bisakah kita mengakui & melawannya??? dan bukan terhanyut didalamnya???

‘Cause don’t forget who’s taking you home
And in whose arms you’re gonna be
So darling,save the last dance for me
Save the last dance for me
Save the last dance for me

lagu yg selama 1 minggu kemaren nemenin gw ngelewatin OT sendirian.. diulang.. diulang.. diulang.. musiknya jd obat ampuh pengusir kantuk

sejenak kuterdiam kembali ke jutaan detik silam

saat semuanya berada diluar kendali

saat hati berbentur dengan logika

dan..

aku terjerembap dalam dunia fotomorgana

kemudian semuanya bergerak ke depan

setiap episode dengan kisah tersendiri

dan…

air mata itu berganti menjadi senyuman

(malam itu pasti aku menangis dan bukan tersenyum setelah mengetahui semuanya, tp ternyata Tuhan tidak mengizinkanku menangis.TUHAN, terima kasih sudah membuatku tersenyum)